New Moon Solar Eclipse Leo - Head/Heart - August 11th, 2018

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Aspects:

  • Leo New Moon 18º conjunct Sun, Mercury Retrograde, Pallas Athene - all loosely squaring Jupiter in Scorpio
  • Juno in Taurus opposing Jupiter in Scorpio
  • Mars Retrograde moves in Capricorn until Aug 27th 

“You’re in my heart, in my heart, in my head.” - Heart Heart Head, Meg Myers

The heart and the head take a seat together at the round table to negotiate during this potent Solar Eclipse in Leo. This is the last of the series of 3 eclipses we will have experienced over this past month. We will have one more Leo Eclipse to grace our hearts in the form of a Lunar Eclipse in early 2019. The next series of Leo/Aquarius Eclipses won’t happen for quite some years. 

So, yes indeed …this is certainly an energy to be working with right now. Especially so considering the collective Leo lesson we’ve all been called to learn as provoked by the Lunar North Node traveling this fire sign since May 2017 to be here until November 2018. 

So pause for a moment are begin to feel into what Leo means to you right now? 

For me it’s about creative flow, it’s about forming hobbies where you get lost in the moment, it’s the joy of forgetting time, it’s the embodiment of childlike energy, it’s emotive drama from the heart, it’s leading FROM the heart, it’s not being afraid to get loud and messy, it’s about being willing to be seen and to see another. 

I recently read Benebell Wen’s description of Leo and she called it “Cosmic Semen”. Like yes…how utterly extra is that? The stars are the universes jizz sprayed across the sky. LOL. 

Leo is about enjoying the gift of drama - we truly would live in a dull boring world with emotive moments. My eyes have opened to no longer see drama only as a burden one bestows onto another without permission. No that’s a different breed of drama. 

I’ve learned pretty harshly that if you don’t allow yourself a healthy relationship to drama - it will turn unhealthy real quick and make the most boring shit dramatic ordeals and exacerbate anxiety. I threw a dramatic fit about going to jury duty. I threw a dramatic fit about trying birth control to regulate my cycle. Etc.

I’m throwing dramatic fits about not fun stuff when I could be throwing dramatic fits about fun stuff. 

Everything that I LOVE is dramatic. Everyone I love is dramatic. Whether it’s Florence and the Machine and her poetry or the costuming on Outlander. 

THAT is drama. That is the drama that makes life enjoyable and full of texture. And I’ve not been giving myself the permission to be “dramatic” in my own way. 

This is a major part of the Leo Lesson I’ve learned, maybe you have experienced similar? 

It’s been yet another doozy of an Eclipse season, marked with even more intensity from Mars Retrograde (in Aquarius/Capricorn) - an event that only happens every 2 years.  

We’ve basically got most of the planets in retrograde tearing shit up - but Mars seems to be the one sticking out to me as nudging (or forcing) us to take a good look at the awakening changes we are allowing or resisting in our lives. While Mars is not directly involved in this Solar Eclipse - I think it’s worth reminding ourselves that Mars retrogrades are not as frequent as other planets retrogrades so this is a significant restructuring of the area where Aquarius is in our charts and not to be taken lightly (Ironically this is in my 5th house - the realm of Leo-like themes). 

Do you ever feel about every 2 or so years you’re itching for some kind of change? A shift? A new fire or passion to be stoked? An ..urge? I know I do. 

So keep this in mind as Mars retrogrades out of Aquarius (the sign that is actually opposite to Leo - where this Solar Eclipse is!) and into diligent and stern minded Capricorn for the next few weeks; the progressive rebellion that we reawakened through Mars in Aquarius is slowing down even further to become more crystalline and “real”. 

But as we reach the last few months of the Leo North Node experience this Solar Eclipse acts as a major pit stop in the journey of understanding what Leo means in our lives. 

In addition to this long term Leo lesson we’ve took on, we have also been undergoing a Scorpio theme as Jupiter has transited this sign or almost a year now. Jupiter will make it’s square to the Solar Eclipse energy on this day. 

We are being fueled to find the proper equilibrium in ourselves between dramatic self expression (Leo) and dramatic preservation (Scorpio).  

As a Scorpio myself, I have a hard time actually allowing myself to feel the Joy that Leo represents. The inner child. The playfulness. Getting lost in the moment. The having fun for the sake of having fun. Allowing even my work to be fun. Having attention on me and being recognized at all. To be unapologetic about the desires of my heart. Actually emoting as excessively as I really want to and actually need to sometimes? YIKES. 

It’s no mystery to us right now that the world is full of horror and uncertainty. Awful reports flood our screens, our brains and our hearts minute by minute. Death. Destruction. Annihilation (Scorpio). It IS heartbreaking. It raises thousands of questions. It raises guilt for even daring to laugh or enjoy a grand moment (Leo) when we clearly really need to get our fucking shit together. Know what I mean? How dare we let go? 

Recently I saw a Meme that read: “Creatives that haven’t created anything new for a while because you’ve been focusing on your mental health: I still see you, I’m so proud of you, and I can’t wait to see your next project whenever you’re good and ready to take it on! Your pace is the perfect pace for you, no rush!”. 

That just seems so relevant to the past year or so. 

Jupiter in Scorpio unearthed some very mighty demons, it has been crippling at times. I

The Scorpion stung and it paralyzed us so we could face the grim reapers of existence. And it kept on stinging. 

So. Much. Fun. Even my emo goth bitch ass self has been like “can you tone it down?”

Meanwhile it seems as if the Leo North Node dangles above us, just out of reach. Totally unignorable thanks to the constant invocation of the longing to create, to express, to release, to make art with our hearts. 

It’s been a major case of collective Stage Fright it seems. 

Universe has got jokes.

I just wanted to highlight a bit about the long term shit going down between this Scorpio energy that’s getting triggered around the time of this very very strong Leo Solar Eclipse accompanied by Mercury, Pallas Athene and that lingering North Node. 

So if you’ve been confused by these universal mixed messages - you’re not alone - it’s very much a thing. 

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And I don’t have the answers for you - I’m in the middle of it too and I’ve been just as frustrated. Wanting to access more moments of joy and make awesome shit but feeling so overwhelmed by the smell of thick grease and disorientated -sometimes helpless. 

This whole being a live thing with the task of being a fully actualized, fully expressed creative human being thing during THIS time of history has got me flabbergasted as heck most days. I’m just doing my best. 

I’ve only been alive for 30 years as this human self, some things can only be understood with time and observation. Astrology literally teaches this process. 

Back to several paragraphs ago: We are experiencing a collective lesson around expression and preservation with the Leo and Scorpio. 

The origin of the word “express” means to “press out”. 

The origin of the world “preserve” means “to keep”.

At this Solar Eclipse - what are we pressing out and what are we keeping? Can we see that we are doing both? 

Pressing out is often a mechanism which can help create useful elixirs. Thus if you want an elixir - get ready to express.

Keeping is a mechanism that honors that which is a sacred. Thus if you want that which is sacred, you must learn to preserve. 

And elixir could very well be considered sacred. 

So what golden elixir is Leo commanding you to make? 

What is Scorpio teaching you to preserve? 

The Solar Eclipses square to Jupiter is one that can tempt us to scatter energy in many places, it’s exuberant. Jupiter is also pretty extra in nature. It seems like perhaps we’ve been so starved of joy we are clamoring to take hold of all of it at once. But learn the lesson: don’t allow yourself to be lost in the fray once more and diminish your fire by trying to grasp onto all the flames. If you’re feel excited, enhanced, inspired to create - channel that force directly to the links that are like pangs to your heart space - that enliven that center in your body. Even if they are not “huge” things - it’s important right now to build up trust with yourself that you are listening to the heart beats for guidance. 

You want to make sure that you have the wherewithal to tend to those few pockets of flames easily and not with worry of them all going out, frantically trying to fan them. 

The Sun, Moon and Mercury hanging out with Goddess Asteroid Pallas Athene screamed out to me “It will feel and be logical to follow the heart. Nothing else can be more logical.”

Yet we don’t always associate logic with heart felt sensations do we? And what a travesty. Especially for the feminine. 

Pallas Athene is the Goddess energy that represents creative wisdom, feminine intelligence, strategy, skill, courage, and pattern recognition. She is smart in that she is able to carry out war tactics with the desire to not to immediately resort to violence. 

All this to say there’s a great deal of mental activation going on right now between Mercury (whom is still Retrograde meaning it’s in reevaluation mode) and Pallas so closely hovering together. Since our modern patriarch centered society has really warped how we use logic and exactly what it means - it could feel a bit anxious around this time for many of us. We could get pulled up into our heads and start overthinking our steps. Or trying to solely rely upon pros and cons lists. Or “facts” that don’t tell the whole story and we know it.  It’s great to review our steps and information, where we are going but it can also become so unproductive if we get stuck there and avoid what our heart is trying to say because we want a specific iteration of what could be considered “evidence” or “proof”. We fuck with ourselves hardcore when we do this. 

So be aware, catch yourself if you fall into this. Pallas Athene is great at recognizing patterns and therefore is great at helping us break patterns. Is this pattern helping your creativity bloom or is it epically smothering it?

We do indeed have the opportunity to rethink, restrategize and create new pathways from a very practical yet heart full place right now. 

Sigils I am finding to be incredibly powerful for me right now. I had a hard time with them in the past but this week it was like all I could think about doing. A Sigil is a symbol you make from a written statement you have declared to the universe about something you desire. You can Youtube “Sigil Making” for instructions and specifics. It requires some pattern recognition and pattern making  - which Pallas really likes right now. It’s a bit mysterious and it’s definitely magical. 

Side note: The other way this can manifest too comes in the form of feminine and masculine having words with each other. I’ve recently noticed yet another uptick in memes and information coming about in how the masculine can work on their emotional intelligence with resources provided (Just check out anything by Justin Baldoni) but likewise how they fail to do so - there are many feminine centered beings growing impatient because they know they need their consorts to show up for this work too in order for the whole hecking thing to work and make change in our cultures and society and beyond.  And for the full healing to land for all. This is also being exacerbated by the Juno and Jupiter opposition that’s triggered - there’s much about power dynamics, jealousy, equality, and appreciation for your consorts being hashed out. 

One last thing that came to me was how the Solar Eclipse makes a weird aspect called a Quincunx to Pluto in Capricorn. It’s a bit of more difficult aspect but Pluto factored into the last months Cancer Solar Eclipse with an opposition to it which continues a theme here.

The message here coming from me this month is about control and power. I recently realized that my attempts to embody “my power” were actually manifesting through control. I didn’t realize that I was coming from a place of control and not empowerment until I started to realize that I had little faith of things “working out for the best”. Not okay. Full stop. Empowerment embodies both authority of oneself and liberation from ones demons. 

Okay babes that is what I’ve got for you for this Leo Solar Eclipse. I’m ready for Eclipse season to settle down and so we can start integrating these lessons and..yep: EXPRESS. 

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In witchcraft, 

Nikki 

Chiron Aries Retrograde 2018

C H I R O N  A R I E S RETROGRADE

Chiron stations Retrograde in Aries until September when it backtracks through Pisces before going direct later in the year.  Chiron entered Aries in April and will be here until 2027. This is a long process of Becoming. Aries is about claiming the “I AM”. Aries is the Self, our Image, our Identity. Chiron is the Wounded Healer; he shows us the deepest triggers we embody so that we may seek out the knowledge which will bring forward the healing that expands through us and outward into the world. If you haven’t noticed yet, the astrology has been pretty brutal. This is yet another “this isn’t going to be pretty” mechanism bestowed upon our healing process.

Plainly put; it hurts. It hurts to take a scalpel to the identity you’ve developed and assess it, even with our numbing salves - there will be blood. To look at the “ego” - which is just another word for identity - and how it plays into our interactions - the ways in which we show up in relationship to the world can be almost traumatizing itself.

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An Identity Crisis would not be an abnormal reaction to Chiron in Aries, but during it’s Retrograde we may access the Clarity of our Pretending, feeling fed up and ready to do something about it. Chiron here teaches us to identify however the fuck we want to because otherwise it is often too painful and self destructive to pretend something within about who we are does not exist, does not hold some type of truth.

Chiron Retrograde in Aries is very very new for us, but we did have Uranus in Aries for several years up until recently - which collectively woke us up to our differences. So now Chiron asks us to go deeper with that - to get realer with it- to get intimate - to go to the root cause of the pain - to look at the heartbreaking questions we personally have about our right to exist as we are on the planet. We may look to how we show up as something else in order to fit into the container of worthiness our particular environment has set up for us to measure to. We may look at how we invalidate our own selves repeatedly.

We may look at our wounds, finding a way to thank them for the texture they gave our lives. Perhaps celebrating how we’ve stripped the chokehold they’ve had on us. Likewise, we may decide it’s time to do what it takes to be released from the chokehold. I wouldn’t be surprised if you see a surge in therapy seeking, the courage to get our answers, to heal ourselves by just fucking showing up time and time again when we’ve been laid open by our own triggers. You may see people take to transmuting their Images and their “Brands” as a tool to healing themselves on a much more subconscious or even unconscious level. Looking into the mirror long and hard will be par for the course.

With Chiron Retrograding in Aries we have a desire to go back to the start, to where our wounds all began. Not to stay stuck in lamentation but to ask ourselves “What can I still do differently NOW?” “Is there something I wish I did then, that I can still DO now?” We can’t control the past, or what may have happened to us. But we do get to decide the direction we will take to heal - and how individual that path will ALWAYS be.

Our identity wounds want to be spoken to and seen - not denied or ignored. Denial of them is what creates their unconscious power to direct us. Our recognition of their Truth and Validity is the recognition of our Truth and Validity, and that is what Liberation looks like. 

Ceres in Virgo & Juno in Taurus

🌙 Ceres in Virgo + Juno in Taurus 🌙

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Over the past few days two Goddess Asteroids moved from Fire signs to Earth signs. This coupled with many planetary retrogrades and the upcoming eclipses this month there seems to be a message urging us to slow the processing down. Yes Eclipses can bring forward sudden change, Yes retrogrades can create missteps,  Yes Jupiter is about to go direct next week. BUT there’s a collective effort wrapping our environments to mesh. This mesh serves as a mean to help us discern and filter. Which often requires our presence and patience. Think of a water filter - that shit takes time to drip through. And you can’t pour too much unfiltered water otherwise it will overflow - you’ve got to pay attention, you’ve got to wait, you’ve got to let the process do it’s thing and clear out the toxins, the distractors. Like wise, think of what it’s like when archeologists search for artifacts - they often have to sift through many layers of dirt to find the precious tiny treasures they seek, for the clues and knowledge to come together. Think of the next while here as a necessary step in the process of filtering and sifting. Letting go what needs to go through, letting what needs to rise or fall go through. Even if life starts to get busy - remind yourself of this. You may not be able to help the fact that you’ve got a ton of shit to do - but you get to have a say in the pace. 

I was watching an interview with Florence Welch on the Seth Myers show and I found it very intriguing that when she arrives to a studio or a place to perform - she takes the time to set up her space and her dressing room exactly how she would like it to be. Whether that’s rearranging the furniture or decorating with her own personal items. She’ll spend time to do that for herself. I would imagine Florence’s life is very very hectically paced at the moment and what a thing for her to do, without apology, to get into her space. Even if she’s not going to be there for more than a few hours - she gets IN there. Florence is a Virgo, the exact sign Ceres will be traveling until early September. Ceres in Virgo brings exactly this period forward of feminine discernment - what needs to be eliminated and what needs to be cherished and harvested. 

Ceres is the Earth Mother Goddess Asteroid and is associated with agriculture, the changing seasons, themes of loss and separation, themes around food (including it’s nourishment/disorders). Essentially she dares to ask us what it is that we need during the various changing seasons of life? Ceres in Virgo brings a season of refinement, of culling, of analyzing, of assessing, and of making improvements. At it’s worst we can experience over vigilance around food, eating and our bodies - and a perfectionist attitude leading to compulsion and obsession. At it’s best we can finally start using our feminine instincts to be our own Mother deciphering what our needs are around nutrients - what foods are supporting our health - is there something we need to eliminate or add in that can make a difference in how well we are functioning? At it’s best we can find the courage to make improvements to our daily routines, we can find the chutzpah to ask for what we need and desire, we can heal our food issues, we can find healing for our bodies, we can become more environmentally friendly, we can reduce waste, we can become more efficient, we can simplify and purge, we can be honest about our standards. Ceres is known to bring about highs and lows in our moods - Virgo can be nervous - be aware of what that might mean for you and do what you need to do to find your equilibrium this summer (or winter - depending got where you are) and do not feel guilty for doing what you need to do to get there.  

Juno is in Taurus for almost the rest of the year as she moves into Gemini late September for a short stint before going Retrograde and back into Taurus in late October until the end of December. So get cozy with her. Juno is the Goddess Asteroid centered around marriage, commitment, about every trigger intimate partnership can bring up, the agreements you make, the “norms” that may not be working out, the ways in which you make partnership work and the sense of equality in them. She makes us aware of our jealousy and envy. As Juno travels Taurus, the sign of money, possessions and self worth we may become aware of our insecurities around having. In general we may look at others and see what they appear to “have” as opposed to what we don’t, we may become concerned that someone or something will take away what we have. Taurus loves to hold onto what it has, to treasure it, to sink it’s hooves into the ground about it. This can be good. This can be a case of detrimental stubbornness that creates a false sense of security. I do feel that this will be an exploration around what we allow ourselves to have in partnership: Do we allow pleasure? Do we allow sensation? Do we allow ourselves to slow down and enjoy them? To be enjoyed? Do we allow ourselves quality time? Do we pool our resources together? Do we allow our partnerships to enhance our self worth or demean it? Do we allow ourselves to embrace a healthy possession of love for one another? Or do we try to control and dictate? Do we allow our partners to pay when they offer? Do we allow each person to enjoy the wealth each possess? Do we hoard love out of fear of losing it? Do we allow ourselves to embrace commitment? Juno in Taurus wants us to focus upon love that is real, the stability of love, the unwavering support, the show of affection, the safety of reliable love, the romance of just knowing someone has your back, to show that we value each other? This transit can also make it horribly apparent when we are holding onto relationships for the sake of it, or if partnerships have come to a complete stand still where neither person is growing or learning, where is has become the “bad” kind of comfortable. 

These two Earthen Witches dance upon the grounded soil of our lives to help us cultivate that which will flourish, it ask us to pay attention to the ground we stand upon, what rocks are we stubbing our toes upon that we could just easily pluck and place somewhere more useful? What do we need to value and hold onto and what needs to be gently surrendered? Let these Goddesses help us clean house, literally and figuratively. The realizations of what you need to do make feel sudden but be implemented more cautiously and with respect (Ceres trines Uranus and Juno) …so know that it’s okay to be clear on what you need to do, declare that to yourself, and let it the energy work on you and your life to gather the resources as needed.