This Eclipse will be conjunct the Lunar North Node and the Goddess Asteroid Ceres. When there is an Eclipse conjunct the North Node, there is a huge emphasis around fated events.
If you recall that last year over the summer we had the Solar Eclipse in Leo in August which was also conjunct the North Node.
I remember around this time hearing of everyones intense feelings, and menstruation cycles being shifted and changed. Look back at that time to see what was going on. Look back to see what it was that you intended at that time. I often find that with Eclipses the things we "ask for" or "intend" really do come about in more eccentric or even backwards ways. For instance you can wish for more Ease, and then have an easier time falling on your butt that usual. Really investigate how what you have intended did manifest for you because the lessons are usually a bit clearer in a funny sort of way.
With this Full Blue Moon Lunar Eclipse in Leo, may sense is that the involvement of the North Node over the next several months will help us massively release barriers to self expression, one of Leo's main loves. If you had intended to be more self expressed and emotive last year, you may see where you've either constantly censored yourself and that is the lesson OR you may have seen that you went super overdramatic and revealed a bit too much and had a public mess on your hands.
Either way this North Node does want you to step up into the leadership role you've craved for you life and will make it painfully apparent where you are smothering your own fire and light, and it will feel like a raw combustion possibly from your lower chest to your upper chest and out your mouth.
The image that is coming to me right now is one of you sitting in the audience of your life and seeing someone else up on stage at a podium. You start to realize that something it's right and that's supposed to be you up there, but there are all these other beings that dictating to you what should be happening. And you're sitting there like "No this is not what I want" and you realize this and some force pulls you up from your seat, onto to crowd, and boots the others off the stage so that you can reclaim your say.
Everyone on stage then starts to realize you are right, even if they aren't thrilled about it, so eventually they get off and settle down. And you realize that all these beings are part of you in some way shape or form, they are not to be in war with but they are not the leader. Your Truer essence is and THAT is the part of you that really should be the one on the stage, at the podium of your life.
I see the North Node involvement in this Eclipse as a nice boot out to everything that is not you, and it may do so forcefully but it will do so with a lot of love because...
Ceres. Ceres is the Earth Mother asteroid. She is the Matriarch. She governs over agriculture and grain (She's where we get the word Cereal from). She rules over the seasons. She helps us cope with loss and with abundance. She is strongly tied to the mother-daughter relationship. Her presence is a strong one with this Eclipse, she is EXACTLY conjunct it at 11º (the North Node is at 14º).
Ceres purpose here at this lunation is to remind us of WHY we need to be fully self expressed and emotive. Why we need to be truthful. The world, the Earth is hurting in a lot of ways and we need to become the caring and loving Mothers we all needed (children optional).
It is theorized by Demetra George that the reason why the Patriarch rose as swiftly and horrifically as it did was because the Feminine went into her dark phase, she disappeared for thousands of years because she was taking the moment (which is actually thousands of years) to evolve in her own rich darkness. And this created a huge sever where we all felt abandoned by the Womb, by the Mother, by the Women. It is theorized that what we are experiencing right now IS the transition into a more feminine and equal world, and so the masculine is lashing out in more pain and we all are like WTF is even going on. This pain is valid for all of us.
The reason WHY we need to be fully actualized is because our World is really depending upon that type of healing. We need to trust our hearts the way we trust that Sun and Moon rises and sets. We need to get fully actualized so that we may be fully integrated and connected to this material plane that weaves this magical ecosystem of energy that we get to experience. We get to refine this with each incarnation and where we are right now in history truly IS a movement in time.
Ceres is a nurturer through and through. She will come bearing the knowledge that we most need to heal, to grow, and to plant seeds of unconditional love. Ceres can sometimes be a tough love type energy as well, remember she teaches us how to move through and prepare for the elements of each season with unwavering compassion towards it all. And that truly comes from being fully okay with who you are, self trust, and knowing that even if you don't know something, you are capable of making magic and nurturing life in your own unique manner.
Ceres at this Eclipse will bring a very very damn strong message that essential what truly is most nourishing thing you can do for yourself, what feels the most like the most love you can inflict and what feels like the most care you can bestow is the type of healing we can give to ourselves: being self expressed, in joy with the process of creation, and being in the fulfillment of living a truthful existence.
In modern language: YOU DO YOU.
....and also a bit like this too: "An it harm none, do what ye will."
You may want to explore what that phrase truly means for you. What harms none, yet allows you the most space to be truthful to you and expressed?
On the other end of the spectrum we will have the Sun and Venus in Aquarius which is deeply centered around humanitarianism, healing emotional attachments that are paralyzing, and being the innovator of our lives. There is a strong awareness in Aqua that there is knowledge and awareness to be delivered to the masses and so it must.
We will see the correlation between self-love and how that act of engaging in truth of self, gives permission to the collective to do exactly that as well. What we need to heal, is often a part of what the collective needs to heal. This Eclipse will greatly display to us the micro and macro, the cause and the effect. How self liberation, liberates all. And how group think can be used with pure intention and then how also it can create a mess. We are duly considering how influenced we are and how influencing we are, and how to be in integrity with both.
It is illuminated for us how thinking and feeling for ourselves can be such a gift to all.
This energy reminds me of the famous Marianne Williamson Quote:
"And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
Now that's what I would call a damn Lunar Eclipse in Leo healing.
I'm not expecting this to be easy. In fact I'm expecting hearts to break, tears to flow, emotive behavior of all kinds, and just a strong strong look in the mirror where you ask "Who am I, really?"
But likely you've already done that plenty of times, and so underneath that I bet there's a sadness of knowing who the fuck you are already, but filtering through the layers and layers of programming and patterning that has left you to believe that you do not.
Let Ceres comfort you like a great divine Mother.
Let her whisper to you the way she did to me;
"Can you still love this tear streaked face in the mirror with her broken heart?"
"Can you believe that you DO know who you are?"
"Can you trust this process?"
This what she whispered to me last night. I think maybe, that it was meant for you, too.